And, over and above this, for the realization to be total, there are two other conditions, which aren't easy either. Intellectually, they're not too difficult; in fact, for someone who has practiced yoga, followed a discipline (I am not speaking here of just anyone), they're relatively easy. Psychologically too, given this equality, there's no great difficulty. But as soon as you come to the material plane - the physical plane - and then to the body, it isn't easy. These two conditions are first, the power to expand, to widen almost indefinitely, enabling you to widen to the dimensions of the supramental consciousness - which is total. The supramental consciousness is the consciousness of the Supreme in his totality. By "totality," I mean the Supreme in his aspect of Manifestation. Naturally, from a higher point of view, from the viewpoint of the essence - the essence of that which in Manifestation becomes the Supermind - what's necessary is a capacity for total identification with the Supreme, not only in his aspect of Manifestation, but in his static or nirvanic aspect, outside of the Manifestation: Nonbeing. But in addition, one must be capable of identifying with the Supreme in the Becoming. And that implies both these things: an expansion that is nothing less than indefinite, and that should simultaneously be a total plasticity enabling one to follow the Supreme in his Becoming. You don't merely have to be as vast as the universe at one point in time, but indefinitely in the Becoming. These are the two conditions. They must be potentially present.

Down to the vital, we are still in the realm of things that are more than feasible - they are done. But on the material level it results in my misadventures of the other day. [[The faint: Mother spreading physically over the world. ]]

But even accepting all these misadventures a priori, things remain difficult because there's a double movement: both a cellular transformation and a capacity for '"something" that could replace expansion with readjustment, a constant intercellular reorganization. [[Mother later clarified the meaning of this sentence: "I saw that to follow the Supreme in the Becoming one has to be able to expand, because the universe expands in the Becoming - the amount of expansion in the universe is not matched by an equal amount of dissolution. So it is really necessary to be able to grow, as a child grows, to expand; but at the same time, for things to progress, this process of expansion demands a constant inner reorganization. As the quantity is increased (if we can speak of quantity here), so must the quality be simultaneously maintained by an ongoing internal reorganization of intercellular relationships." ]]

page 35 - Mother's Agenda , volume 3 , 12th Jan. 1962

But when you have the positive experience of the sole and exclusive existence of the Supreme and that everything is just the play of the Supreme with Himself, instead of its being something disquieting or unpleasant or unsettling, it's on the contrary a sort of total security.

The only reality is the Supreme. And all this is a game He plays with Himself. I find this much more comforting than the other way around.


page 119 , Mother's Agenda , volume 7 , 25th May - 1966

This Supreme Consciousness almost seems to put you in contact with quite forgotten things that belong to the past - that are even, or that were or seemed, completely erased, with which you no longer had any contact: all kinds of little circumstances, but seen now in the new consciousness, in their true place, and because of which all life, all human life is such a pathetic, miserable, mean whole. And then, there's a luminous joy in offering all that for it to be transformed, transfigured.


page 130 , Mother's Agenda , volume 7 , 8th June - 1966

(To Satprem:) Oh, you know, I asked this Consciousness what was needed to receive it without distorting it, and it answered me (Mother reads out a note):

"One must be able to stand in the light of the Supreme Consciousness without casting a shadow."


page 135 , Mother's Agenda , volume 10 , 16th April - 1969

One day, I received someone here (it was R., in fact), and the body asked this Consciousness, like that, it asked, "How, how to make sure there is no mixture of all the lower movements with this light?" Then (I was sitting here), there came down a sort of column wide like this (gesture of about five feet), here (gesture in front of Mother), like a column of light. But it came down IN THE ROOM, mon petit! It wasn't "elsewhere" - it was here. To such a point that I saw it with my own eyes. A light ... indefinable, dazzling, but ... I don't know, so tranquil! I can't say, I don't know how to explain ... so steady, so tranquil. Dazzling. And without any vibrations. And its color ... indefinable, in the sense that it was neither white nor golden nor ... It was ... as if EVERYTHING were there. It can't be described. Wonderful.

Then this Consciousness took my consciousness and went like this (gesture in a circle starting from Mother on her left, going through the column of light, then returning to Mother on her right) .... I felt it [the column of light, when Mother's consciousness went through it]. I felt it, but I didn't see anything [i.e., no shadow]. I didn't see anything, I only saw a slight movement, but ... It was like a slight movement, but it was the same light. [[The "slight movement" is Mother's consciousness going through the column of light, which means that Mother's consciousness had the same color or the same light as the column's. ]] Then it went through the column, and came back [into Mother]. And then it took RA consciousness (same gesture in a circle starting from R., taking her consciousness through the column, and coming back to R.), it went through, and there was an outline [while crossing through the column of light], an outline, and in the place of the head, it was blue, it had become blue [i.e., a shadow in the light]. That was R.'s effect: an outline. Then it said something to me (wordlessly, but it was instantly translated into words, in English):


"When you stand in the light of the SupremeConsciousness you must not make a shadow."

And with that experience, it was so real and intense! ... It said, "That's the condition - the condition." Then, half an hour later, it said it to me in French; it was translated into French.

I gave the text to the person. It can't be published as it is, because it requires a whole explanation (and I think it's better not to publish it, I don't know). It requires a whole explanation. Or else, we could put:

"To be able to receive the new consciousness without deforming it ...

Then the text:

" ... One must be able to stand in the light ofthe Supreme Consciousness without casting a

shadow."

Words ... if one hasn't had the experience, words are ... They don't have what the experience gave - that power. It was so intense, you know! Since then, the body has been constantly "thinking" Of that: "Don't cast a shadow, don't cast a shadow ...." And the transformation of the body's consciousness is taking place at a tremendous speed.

But my eyes were open, I wasn't in trance, I was talking with R. I saw it like that: it took my consciousness ... (same gesture in a circle).

Did it envelop you or ...?
No: it [the column of light] was in front of me, like that, between me and R. In front of me, like a layer. Between me and the window. And then, my consciousness was as if seized and taken through it (same gesture). I looked and didn't see anything [i.e. any shadow or trace], but I felt. I felt: there was a slight quiver [while going through]. Then, to give a demonstration, it took R.'s consciousness inside the column, and there was an outline of the head: the outline was seen, just an outline; overall it had become somewhat gray, but not dark at all. And at the place of the head, it was more blue; it was blue, opaque: the head, the shape of a head, like that - an outline. So I wholly understood what it meant: "When you stand in the light of the Supreme Consciousness, you must not make a shadow."

It was an experience given TO THE BODY - L tell you, my eyes were open. I felt the consciousness ... (same gesture in a circle). It can't be described, can't be expressed.

Since then, the body has been full of an intensity of vibration, of aspiration, of ... And a tremendous will to get rid of all possible falsehood, all of it.

(silence)

It remained for a long time. It remained for at least a quarter of an hour - a long time. And I felt like doing this (Mother rubs her eyes as if in disbelief). It's the first time the physical body has had an experience of that sort, with the eyes wide open. I saw it come down, come down like that, settle down and stay there. And all the cells seemed to be thirsting and thirsting for that - it was wonderful! Inexpressible.


page 136-38 , Mother's Agenda , volume 10 , 16th April - 1969

It was seen, like that. Afterwards, it made me write (Mother points to her note). I first wrote it without the first line:

"To people of ill-will"
I first wrote without putting any title, then it insisted, it said, "No, you must put it, it's very important."

"The harm you have caused willfully always comes back to you in one form or another.

(said by the S.M. consciousness)"

And, you understand, it's something practical: it was DONE like that; he [Sri Aurobindo] showed me it was like that: "You do like this." So if what he showed me is really now established in the world, it must have extraordinary consequences.

On the mental heights, Buddhism had already said something like that: your thought, your will goes around the world and comes back to you. "Do not think you can do something with impunity," it says, "because it goes around the world and comes back to you." But here, it was ... He showed me bad vibrations with their will to harm, he showed how they came, like that, and how, with this Consciousness there around someone, the vibrations hit and went back, they bounced back as if against a wall - they hit and went back. And on their way, they modified themselves so as to take the very form needed to strike the person [who sent them].

That's what I SAW.

Then it made me write that afterwards, as if I were speaking to those people.


page 154 , Mother's Agenda , volume 10 , 26th April - 1969